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Discovering the Meaning of True Peace

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The Soul Becomes Dyed with the Color of its Thoughts

Quote by Marcus Aurelius

I am the victim of an extra-marital affair.  I was married for twenty years when one day I found e-mails that were being sent back and forth between my ex-husband and his paramour.  That was two and a half years ago.

Since that time, I have been through intense counseling.  I immediately joined a divorce support group at a local church, and I also began weekly one-on-one counseling with a professional counselor.  I have been through the emotional rollercoaster that typically accompanies the process of divorce and realizing that someone who you trusted with all your heart and soul has betrayed you.  I get it.  I have also learned a great deal about narcissism, and I am currently writing a book on my experiences.

However, I also have a very strong belief in God.  In addition to the counseling, I turned to God and begged him for His strength.  I knew He was right there with me.  How?  Well, in addition to just “knowing” it deep in my soul, I had many, many things that happened to me during that time that told me He was right there.  There is too  much to tell here, but it will be available to read in my next book, hopefully to be published within the next six months.  Right after finding out about the affair, I had a dream that I was walking along a stormy beach, completely broken.  Jesus walked up next to me, picked me up, and carried me down the stormy beach.  I vividly remember this dream.  I have also read Bible passages that spoke directly to my situation, and people have come into my life that are definitely “true” Christians and who have walked this stormy journey with me without  leaving my side.  Finally, one day I saw a rainbow after fervently praying to God about this situation (see a previous post on this blog called “God’s Rainbow”.

When my ex was caught, he lied to me repeatedly as he was trying to cover up his actions.  He also tried to blame me for all the bad things that have happened to him since the break up.  He told me that it was my fault that he didn’t have any friends because I told all of my friends about the affair.  At the time, I let all of those remarks affect me.  I now know that the entire responsibility for the break up of our marriage lies directly on him.  I have learned that I have to put the responsibility where it lies – on him. Those comments no longer affect me as I now understand the truth.

I recently had another vivid dream.  The question was asked of me in my dream “what is the difference between me, my ex and his paramour?”  I was quick to respond.  “I have a good soul.  I truly believe in God, and I did not break my marriage vows.  They cannot say that.  They lied, cheated, and tried to cover up their sins.”  And then, several comments that had been made to me over the past few years came to mind.  A priest told me “Your ex is a very weak man.”  Another close friend said “A mile wide and an inch deep.”  And then it hit me so hard that I actually woke up.  My ex and his paramour try so hard to “look good” on the outside, but in the inside there is nothing but darkness, ugliness, deception and lies.  I realized as I woke up that they are actually not only lying to me and everyone else around them, but they are actually lying to themselves.  They will never truly find happiness and inner peace until they deal with all the darkness that they have on the inside.  Outward appearances can be very deceiving.

The Bible says to “guard your heart”.  Be careful that you are not deceived by outward appearances.  You may be shocked at the inner ugliness that lurks inside.  I have learned that I am certainly one very, very lucky lady.  God reached down from heaven and pulled me out of a very dark and ugly situation.  He actually saved me!  I feel like the most blessed person in the world for God to think enough of me to yank me out of this terrible situation!!  Praise be to God forever!!

This is God’s lesson to me, and it was learned by going through a very deep valley in my life.  Listen to Him…..REALLY LISTEN……AND OBEY HIS COMMANDS!!  You will be amazed at the inner peace that will come with His lessons.  True wisdom only comes from really knowing God.










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