Well, I have had one interesting week, to say the least. But during the course of this week, I was reminded, gently, to put my complete trust in God. I think that from time to time, even the most devout Christians will forget that God is in control. It is human nature to forget that God is in charge as we try to control the events in our lives. This is especially true when faced with difficulties.
Earlier this week, I was made aware of some financial issues within a non-profit organization. Without getting into too much detail, I was disturbed to find out the details from a very dear friend, and I felt it was my responsibility to report the possible money mismanagement. At first, I really didn’t want to get involved, but as I thought more about it, I knew it was the right thing to do. So, four of us wrote a letter detailing our concerns.
While we were dealing with this issue, my mom came to visit. We had such a wonderful time together, as we always do, but I felt guilty leaving her alone for periods of time while I continued to deal with this issue. My mom is very understanding, and she told me that it didn’t bother her one bit that I had to go to my office and work for a while. However, I still felt torn. I wanted to just have fun with her and not worry about the problem for a while, but I also wanted to do the right thing and help those out who had been mistreated in the organization.
On Tuesday, I sat down to pray as I always do. I was very stressed and exhausted. As I closed my eyes, I just sat there quietly for a few minutes before I began to say my prayers. An image of Jesus came to my mind, and he was standing on water. He asked me to come toward him as He stretched out his arm. I was in a boat, and I began to walk on water toward him, just as the disciple Peter did. He told me very clearly to trust in Him and to get rid of my doubt. I began to pray. I told him all of my concerns and about all the stress that I was under regarding this problem with the 501(c)3. He repeatedly told me to trust Him. After praying, I opened my Bible and continued to read where I had left off. I was stunned when I read the following verse:
“But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” James 1:6
I knew at that moment that Jesus was right there with me. I continued to read.
“But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but DOING it – he will be blessed in what he does.” James 1:25
I knew that I was doing the right thing. I was standing up for those who had been mistreated. I went away feeling much better that morning.
As the week went on, the 501(c)3 began to fall apart because the issues were being openly discussed. This bothered me somewhat since this organization had done some amazing things in the past. It was sad to see things fall apart because of bad management, and I began to believe that the organization would not be able to be saved.
This morning, I attended church with a friend of mine. The topic, unbelievably, was about trust in God! Several statements really affected me and almost brought me to tears.
One point was to tune out bad advice that others want to give to us during difficult times. The pastor brought up the story of Jairus and how Jesus ignored comments made when Jairus’ daughter died. Jesus told Jairus to trust Him, and the little girl was healed.
“While Jesus was still speaking, some men came from the house of Jairus, the synagogue ruler. ‘Your daughter is dead,’ they said. ‘Why bother the teacher anymore?’ Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, ‘Don’t be afraid; just believe.'” Mark 5:35-36
“After he put them all out, he took the child’s father and mother and the disciples who were with him and went into where the child was. He took her by the hand and said to her, ‘Talitha koum!’ (which means ‘Little girl, I say to you, get up!’). Immediately the girl stood up and walked around…” Mark 5:40-41
When I heard this, I realized that nothing is impossible with God. Could this organization be saved? Will a better organization come out of all this mess? Maybe so. With God’s help, anything can happen.
The pastor then talked a little bit on interruptions. He conveyed a detailed story about how an interruption can actually be all part of God’s plan. I immediately thought about the past week as it was full of interruptions during my mom’s visit. I realized that these interruptions had a purpose, and it was well worth my time to address them.
The final point that the pastor made was to realize that challenges are a part of the process.
“Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You sympathized with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what He has promised.” Hebrews 10:32-36
No matter how difficult life may become, put your complete trust in God. Things may not always make sense at the time, but always remember that God is in control. Stay the course, and be strong in the Lord. God will never betray your trust, and He will never let you down!